My Day.

 
     Today has indeed been a busy day. I woke up as per usual at 7:15am, then I lounged in bed until 7:30am, after that I finally decided it was time for me to get ready for school. I arrived at school at exactly 8:45am as the slush and snow made it extremely difficult to walk in. At 9:30am, I had an appointment with guidance where I discussed my plans for grade twelve. That went fairly well, I learnt that in order to take the online classes that I want I'd have to leave "holes" in my schedule... a bit risky I suppose but oh well. 10:10am, it was time for history. That period was spent watching The Mummy, a brilliant movie that I always enjoy watching... as long as it's the first or second one. At 11:25 I met my friend chris for lunch, we chatted and ate... it was fun and a nice change of pace, exactly what I needed. The rest of my day kind of went by in a flash, and before I knew it  it was home time.
     At home I decided to visit my school website and officially pick my courses, or at least the ones I can:

English
Earth and Space Science
Spanish
-spare-

The Writers Craft
*Studies in Literature 
*Wold History
-spare- 

     I'm extremely excited for grade twelve, I didn't even hate grade 11... I hope I can do this.

Well, the weather outside is frightful! 

(PS the ones with the '*' in front of it are my e-learning classes, also a spare is a free period).

I hope I'm Wrong.

     

       I tend to cling to broken people, because I feel like maybe if I helped them I’d be able to prove to myself that I’m not as horrid as I think. I sit down quietly and listen to others, telling them sympathetic words, genuinely trying my best to support them and then when I realize that they’re not exactly willing to extend the favour I can’t help but wonder if there’s something wrong with me. I was told once by a complete stranger that I, “look like I’m drowning” and I never actually thought that anyone noticed before… this just me leads to wonder, how many people have looked at me and seen that “drowning” expression on my face only to ignore it? Maybe there’s just something about me that makes other people leave or ignore my existence… maybe I really am as horrid as I think, and this is what I deserve. 

Future Goals.

Begin of blog song: Medicine- Daughter.

     Since I'm in the process of picking my schedule for grade 12, I decided that I needed to make a plan and a goal for my future. I refuse to rush through life aimlessly without a set goal, I refuse to "take life one step at a time" or "go where the wind carries me", maybe that'll work for others, but it's not how I see my life panning out. So, here are a list of my goals.

Schedule (grade 12) -in no set order-  English
                                                              Writers Craft
                                                              Studies in Literature (online) didn't happen
                                                             Astronomy
                                                            Philosophy (online) didn't happen
                                                           World History (online) didn't happen

Summer 2013: Work, save, search for scholarships didn't happen

Sep.-Jan. : 2 in school classes, 1 online. did not happen

Feb.-Jun. : 1 in school class, 2 online.
                    Apply to uni. - York, U of T (scarborough & downtown campus), Queens (?)
                    Work, save. sort of happened

Summer 2014: Look for apartments (with either K or Bo...), work, save definitely didn't happen
               August: Move out of mothers house, work, save. kind of happened minus the working and saving bit

Sep.-Apr. : Work, save, Uni (?)

Summer 2015 : Work, get ready for uni. this actually did happen guys!

University Goals: Major- English, History
 Minor- philosophy, Psychology. I was super fucking ambitious 

Career Goals: To work as an editor in a local Canadian publishing company, and write on the side. still accurate 

     If there's anything that I know is that seeing your goal is only half of the journey. However, I usually don't allow myself to dream because I'm afraid of how much disappointment I'd feel if I were to fail. The thing about this is, I cannot fail. Simply because I refuse to. I will do everything in my power to meet my end goals, (see Career Goals, and Summer 2014).

End of blog song: Keep Your Head Up- Ben Howard.

Back to School Blues.

    No, but seriously. I swear someone was fallowing me around since the time I woke up to just before last period playing the world's saddest violin. I even ended up crying in one of my classes, for no reason! I don't know, maybe I'm just too naive, but is this what it means to be a teenager? I don't get it. It's called you're going to be on your period.

This picture kind of fit my earlier mood... and I just like it a lot
for some reason. :P

     I missed yesterday's post so here's a CONFESSION: when I was younger I tried to hatch an egg from the fridge.

A Day With The Girls.

Begin of blog song: Love- Daughter

     Friday, was another unusually eventful day for me. Since we had no school, the girls and I decided that it'd be nice if we spent the our day at Chapters.                                                        

     The day began with a lot of slipping and sliding due to extremely icy roads. I literally slid down the entire length of my driveway, it made walking to the bus stop nearly impossible. However, as soon as we reached our destination everything went brilliantly!
 
     Due to incredible luck; (a 25$ Chapters gift card and 5$ worth of saved up points), I was able to get a great haul without (technically) spending any money.

     After our purchases, the girls and I decided to have lunch at a cute little cafe across the street called Caffe Mirage and split a huge plate of nachos. We actually like the place so much that we decided to make it "ours", and vowed to return at the very least once every month. Try once every year.

     <CONFESSION TIME> Okay, I missed out on yesterday's post. Not because I didn't know what to write, (see that notebook there? I've decided to write my blog entries there first before publishing them) but because my mum wouldn't turn on the Internet I don't know how this sentence was supposed to end, but it didn't. Anyways, my confession: every night before I fall asleep I create little scenarios in my head, where I find that perfect girl and we have an epic love story. 

End of blog song: Numb- Marina and the Diamond. 

Sorry!

No posts for awhile, internet problems!

Partying, partying, yeah!

  

So, tomorrow's my older sisters birthday and today we had a surprise party for her and all the family and cousins came over. That was a lot fun, especially since my birthday was last week, so I got a cut of my sisters gifts! :D Let's not forget the wonderfully delicious birthday cake. 

It says Chantel, because she's the birthday girl!

Here, have a Confession!

I still sleep with my stuffed animals, maybe I'll introduce you guys to 'em one of these days. No  I won't.

  

It's official, I am one of the most laziest/unfit people on earth. No, but seriously yesterday I had drama and I'm still sore from what was essentially an extreme game of Ring Around the Rosie. This is sad on so many levels! To make things worst Valentines Day is coming up. However the silver lining in this is that, Kit is in my history class and she sits right behind me.