My head is not a safe place for me to be anymore. Recently (though not really) I've been experiencing these "episodes" where I will completely break down and lose control of myself and my thoughts. During these "episodes" I lose the ability to construct full sentences and tend to repeat words a lot (today's word was fuck), I become very annoyed and short with myself, refer to myself as you and sometimes I lash out violently (hitting a wall... or sometimes myself). I might've called this a side effect of my anxiety, but I've had anxiety attacks before and they're not like this. I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
