Long Time No See.

Begin of blog song: Skinny Soul- Family

     I came out to my parents. My father disowned me, my mother cried. She still loves me, though, I haven't spoken to my father since I told him, though he did take it upon himself to tell my grandmother about me and ask my mum to kick me out. This was in either the end of August or the beginning of summer. I don't remember.
     Remember that girlfriend I talked about before? Well, that's over, more than over, that crashed at 180mph on the highway, and I'm roadkill. She's okay, though, or at the very least she acts okay. I don't know.
    Everything's back to normal, everything was like it was before. I still lock myself in my room and cry, I still feel like I'm drowning, I still try to convince myself that someday, someday soon maybe, everything will be okay. The only problem is, I stopped believing myself.
     Still writing, I broke my old laptop and lost everything that was on it, I mean everything but that's just my luck eh. Starting over from scratch isn't horrible, I wrote down most of my stuff, either on paper or in my email, so yeah.
     I don't know, seems like this is the only place I can turn to, y'know? There really isn't anyone else, or if there is I don't feel comfortable or safe turning to them. So I guess there isn't really anyone. Oh wow, I thought I was past all this, I thought I was finally beginning to accept things and be happy maybe. God, was I ever fucking wrong.

End of blog song: This Is Gospel - Panic! At The Disco.