Confessions.

I decided to do this thing where whenever I miss a day of blogging I'll confess something to make up for it. Since I missed two days (yesterday and today (I won't be posting anything today, sorry)) I am going to confess two things!

  

1. I hate being scared, I am the biggest coward there ever was.
2. I said you could have it all because I  don't want to share with you.

Not Bad.

That moment when a photo sums up your whole life.

  

Okay, so it may be sad but this is so completely me right now. I just came back from getting my eyebrows done and the first thing I do is warm up some food, get in my pj's and turn on my laptop. Best part is? I don't regret anything! I love life right now, I mean when I get older I sure as hell won't have the amount of time that I do now to just sit back and relax. This is a joke, I'm nineteen now, and about to start my second year of university, I'm doing the exact same shit that I was doing when I wrote this. Besides, life is all about appreciating the little things only to realise that they are what make up the big things. Sometimes life gets ahead of us, and before we know it it has passed us by and we haven't even taken a moment for ourselves to just sit back, relax, and take it all in, so if you'll excuse me, I'm going to watch about five days worth of tv now and do just that. This went from kind of deep to me missing the point completely. 

- peace out girl scouts! 

Let Me Brake this Down for You.

  

Begin of blog song: Keep You Head Up- Ben Howard

Do you want to know why I'm so passive aggressive? Alright let's have a go at it shall we? Let's properly look at this situation, okay?

I- don't speak up or properly express myself.
You- hate it when I do this.
However- when I do try to properly express my opinion on a certain subject I am either 1. ignored or 2. treated as if I am being "too sensitive" or "annoying".
The point- if you want me to start speaking up, start listening. 

I have no problem what so ever that you express your opinion about me, what I do have a problem with is when your opinion about me completely degrades the type of person that I actually am. No, I'm not saying that I'm completely spotless in this food-fight, because I do realise that you do try to "pull me out of my shell" and that I don't let you, you make a lot of efforts to be "the best big sister that you can be" but the fact that you're even less consistent than I am, have no respect for authority, have no tangible future goals, and don't know how to deal with anyone in the history of ever. All of that, plus more makes it hard for me to actually think of you as my "big sister" because in my eyes babe, you're not.

You seriously want me to start respecting you and taking you seriously? Give me a reason to, because if you haven't noticed (which you don't because no one does), I try my best in school, I try my best to not be a sorry sap 100% of the time, I try my best not to lose my shit on everyone in this fucking house. I've lost where I'm going with this, but I think the point that I'm trying to make is that yeah we all have our set backs... I'm an emotionless academic idiot, and you got pregnant at 16... but that doesn't mean that we still can't try our best to see where the other is coming from. I'm sick and tired of asking you to speak nicer to me because you don't listen, it completely leaves me lost when you don't understand that the reason I don't know what to do around you is because you're my older sister and not my friend, it kind of leaves me with whiplash when you want to act like my friend but respected as someone who has authority over me and it completely fucking pisses me off that you don't have your life together at 25 but expect me to have all the answers figured out at 17.
Wow, I wish I could say that things have changed on this one, wish I would've made myself sound less like a bitch... (the babe comment made me laugh though).

End of blog song: Peter- Daughter.

The Weekend.

Do you like my hat? You should, it was
was made just for me.

                                       

My cake... or at least the last of it...

  

     So, my party was a success. Guess came, we enjoyed cake and games, there were only a few fights. Most importantly, I was happy... for the most part at least. I mean, there were times when I felt down or when everyone was laughing and I couldn't bring myself to. However, at the end of the day when everyone went home although I was relieved to get my house back to myself, I missed them.

Seventeen Forever

It's almost 9 and the first thing I do after waking up and taking care of the necessities is eat a birthday cupcake :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!
I love birthdays, and I love my mum! she ALREADY gave me my b-day present which is the purse from Guess  

  

isn't it beautiful?

There are so much I love about birthdays like:
-presents
-cake
-money
but I think the best thing about birthdays is that you get one day that's completely devoted to you. I mean as soon as twelve hit I got a phone call from the Forever Loyal J wishing me a happy birthday. Not to mention the lovely text messages. I love the fact that people are actually glad that I was born and are willing to spend this day with me. :) HOLY SHIT I'm practically a foetus. If only 17-year-old Drew can see me now.

  

Going through ALL of my posts to correct all of the mistakes and make it look a bit more human. I want to look back on this one day and think, "good job Drue, you've managed to not make yourself look like a complete twat. *pats on back*"  I actually failed at this goal, but it's all very entertaining so I'm only sort of complaining.

I will be this dog, and I will be proud.

Pet Peeves.

Hello, people, today's topic is going to be on pet peeves. As in my pet peeves. Here's a bit of a disclaimer before you continue, I have a fuck load of them. So, if you don't have the time then I don't know, what the shit are you doing on here if you don't have the time in the first place? Anyways let the list begin, this is in no particular order just whatever pops up in my head first is going to be first.

• Hypocrites, what the fuck is this "Do as I say not as I do" bullshit? Fuck you, live by your words or shut the fuck up!

• Dog walkers, now I don't actually have anything against the dog walking community. It's more of a thing against the people who don't have the frigging decency to pick up their dog's crap. I mean seriously? Ew.

• People who don't answer their phones right away, Okay let me get into specifics here. I don't mean when it's in like an impossible situation to get it on the first ring, I get it. I don't mean when your phone's on silent or vibrate either, I get that. I mean when your ringtone is some loud ass pop/rap/rock/whatever song and you let it play for fucking HOURS in the middle of a show/movie/quiet time when it's sitting RIGHT BESIDE YOU. No, fuck you, that's not okay.

• People that don't know how to respect authority, Still a pet peeve of mine, but this was extremely ignorant of me so I'm going to do the adult thing and erase the bad bits.

• People who get their kicks by making fun of others, this is not funny nor is it acceptable. Do not make anyone else the punchline for your jokes, it's rude and hurtful.

  

• People who are fast to believe rumours, I mean seriously? No, but really? You hear something about someone you don't even know and you let that be the foundation on what you'll build your opinion of them on? Rumours in general really piss me off, they're fucking gross and ruin people's lives.

• Being woken up in the middle of the night, No... just no. Wait until you live on dorm and get your first roommate.

• Bullies, also a huge NO. Just don't do it, don't be a bully!

• Know it alls, you do NOT know everything and you are NOT always right. Time to wake up to reality hon and accept that. I should probably take my own advice...

• Grade gremlins, you know the type they're completely greedy when it comes to getting good grades. It's not enough that they're getting in the high 90s already but as soon as they get into the high 80s they're "failing" and cry about it meanwhile you're getting the same mark and that's: "completely understandable for someone of your level" or some BS like that. Shut the hell up, grades aren't everything, you know what the real world is all about? Connections, so don't screw over the middle man because he's the one that'll help you get to where you need to go. Connections are everything. Bitter but accurate.

• Teachers, not all of them. Just the ones that answer "study hard and hand in the next assignment" when you ask them how you could possibly get your marks up. Uhm, hello I am OBVIOUSLY doing all those things now, and it is OBVIOUSLY not working. No you weren't, don't lie on the internet kid.

:D that's it (maybe) ALL (possibly) of my pet peeves. :) I feel better now!