Begin of blog song: Candle- Daughter
Today, was just as tiresome as any other. Woke up at 2:43AM. Bad dream; couldn't sleep. Been up since then. Went to school, took notes, took more notes. Had lunch, ate with friends. Saw her. Walked her to class. Took more notes, did a math quiz. Came home, rocked out to a secret crowd. Took a shower, ate, went on the computer.
Tomorrow is Friday, and then I get three days to detox and get all thoughts of her out of my head. Until Thursday that is, when I have a lunch date planned with her. It's not an actual date, of course, that'll never happen.
I'm looking forward to the long break, aren't we all? I'm supposed to be going shopping with mum, that probably won't happen, though. Things solemnly happen the way they were planned out. Here's hoping that for once, everything plays out smoothly.
I'll tell you all a secret, life isn't hard. Not even close to complicated. Life is the easiest thing to deal with. You know what fucks all of that up? We do, we complicate things, we make things harder on ourselves and on others. We are afraid to live, and we are afraid to love, so we screw ourselves over and do whatever we can to keep ourselves "safe" all while blaming someone else.
End of blog song: I Don't Wanna Be In Love (Dance Floor Anthem)- Good Charlotte
-Peace out girl scouts.
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